Tired

Went out with friends yesterday, watching the Dark Knight. Yeah it came out in the cinema so late in here.

I am a bit reluctant to go out cause my money is tight. But I'm feeling so bored.

Mr R, the person who is "...homophobic and even when looking for a girlfriend, he is too choosy. He got the Korean guys good look...(refer here) " was also there. Looking good as usual.

During our outing, I can't help to always steals a look at him. When I sat directly in front of him, I always make an eye contact at him while talking until I realized that I've not looking at other people at all (racist! haha)

Anyhow, Mr R has been so annoying as he is. It seems that there is nothing that can satisfy him. Whether it is a movie, game, food, sports, or I guess even woman. And the worst part is I felt so intimidated by him that I have wasted a bit of my brain neurons to pay attention at his likes and dislikes, and thinking ways to please him.

Oh God.

Life is so unfair. Or I think it isn't? A lot of people with the good looks have a very bad attitude while the so-so have a very good one. I guess because good-lookers comes with attractions (good and bad) so they need to build a wall to dispel the bad attraction while the bad-lookers need to work on their personalities to attract people.

But still, I still can't helped thinking that eventhough Mr R is annoying, his good looks and good body is a steals. I mean I think can handles his peeves as long as I can be besides him. Which so against my life principle which is "seek thou happiness" (I just made that up)

Mr H, he is nice alright, but I somehow automatically will teased and annoy him whenever we met. And he annoyed me back. The cycle continues. But I feel I should stop getting close to him, because we couldn't be together. So why waste my energy and keep getting hurt?

I guess that's the power of love. We will do whatever we can just to be beside the one that we love. The stupidity of love. One sided-love that is.

But I am feeling tired.