Trip

A few days ago, I went to a trip. This time to the Southern Malaysia. With my straight batchmate friends. Hot straight friends. Mr F and I went to Mr R's house. Tee hee hee...

I used to have a crush on both on them. Mr F is the first one that I befriend. He talked to me first. To the group that I was in, actually. We had some conversations. Then suddenly we just can  "mix in", and now become close friend. I even moved in his house. But then, the feeling was not strong.

I guess my taste still on the fairer skin. LOL

Mr R, well when the first time I saw him, I was like, "OMG!! Fair skin, Cute!! I am so gonna talk to him". But then I felt inferior. I feel intimidated with good looking people.

Then I found out that Mr R was close with Mr F, as he always went to our rental house. He even slept here. By the slip of fate, I befriended him too.

When I got my ultimate crush on Mr G, I don't look back anymore.

But I still love to have a look at his face.

But then, he went to the gym in our final year. The feeling came back. But not really strong. (I am so visual lols)

When my besties said he interested in Mr R as I showed him my graduation dinner video, suddenly the feeling came back to me.Talking about being bitches and wanting what other people wants. LOLs.

Anyhow,

I just wanted to recaps the best moment ever in my life so far, as a closeted gay.

Turn out, one of our plans was to go to Mr R's grandmother's house.


In the late afternoon, I was very sleepy, so I took my nap. Mr R and Mr F was chatting outside. Then they came in. I was half asleep when I realized Mr R land his face on my armpit. And acting like he was eating it. -.-

It was cute, but me being a good girl guys, I brushed his hair and pushed him to stop. I was quite surprised. And scared. Because I think my armpit was not smelling that nice -.-


At night, it was the best moment for me.

We are squeezing ourselves, sleeping together on the bed.

I am envious of Mr F and Mr R. There were schoolmate in high school. During my studying years, they used to sleep on the bed together. Mr R, when he moved to a house far from the university, stayed at our house for sometime. I always wanted to squeeze in but I don't find ways to make it without people to think it as weird. And also because I was fat. Haha.

Nothing big happened really. Except there was some skinship here and there. Sometimes when I turn my body to other side, I directly faced with Mr R's face. It was the closest my mouth can went to Mr R's face!

I can't sleep well. I mean, I felt excited, nervous, but happy. Imagine, two of your good looking guys was sleeping besides you. Imagine, all the "harass" that you can do, while pretending it happening because of your sleeping habit.

But I am being cautious, again, as Mr R is so homophobic, so I kinda afraid to do anything. And with the recent junior problem. Slut!!

I wanted to stare to Mr R sleeping face all night, but it seems that he always facing away from me. It doesn't help that the weather was hot, so I need to turn my body too.

When he was facing me, I stared to him, but then I felt asleep because I am tired LOLs.

I somewhat, wanted to stare to him, and if he accidentally awake, I could give the "I am falling all over you right now and I wish to have sex with you" look. XD

During the sleep, Mr R was moving a lot, towards the centre of the bed, which means, toward me. Till one time, my head was practically on his shoulder. It was a very warm feeling. I moved my head a bit, making it closer to him.

Too bad the alarm goes off. Meeeehhhhh!!!!

But lucky me for not going overboard or anything, because Mr R actually half asleep too. I mean there's some event at night like Mr F getting a phone call at night, and that Mr R's grandmother woke up very early and was talking to somebody. He actually realised it. Hmm...

Anyhow, on the next day, thing gets so much fun. Or rather, sexy?

Mr R was only wearing boxer (I must say that his boxer is ugly as shit! hahaha), and walking around inside the room while we were talking. I must say, as I get to see more of him, I don't really felt the lust anymore. But I am so happy. Hahaha.

I guess I just like his face the most. He has been going to the gym, but because he ate the whey protein, and the usual daily food, he does have a big biceps, but his belly still quite flabby. But still flat.

He will definitely get so much hotter if he do a lot of cardio. And that belly lose all of its fat and starting to show six packs!

When he just took a bath in the morning, and putting his white shorts, half thigh length, I swear I can see his morning wood, (I do saw one when we was changing into towel and went to the bathroom) and if I was not mistaken, I can see the curve of his penis head.

I think his penis was about the same size as me.

But again, I don't really get turn on. I do get some erection when I thought that I will be sleeping in the middle of two guys, but that's it. I think maybe my hormone was at it lowest, or I was tired.

I don't felt longing to anyone recently.

In this trip, I have been seeing so much of Mr R. -.-

I already missed him, and this trip.

On a side note, I regretted that I make a fuss about Mr R sleeping habit. Because of that, he refused when Mr F asked Mr R too sleep with us on our last night at his house. He said I complained a lot. I was joking. (-.-")