Hello world! Since that my previous blog has oppened to my nearest persons, I think it is the time to open up a new place for me to say a few words about my inner, indisputable feeling. This act has been planned for a long time ago but because something really upsetting myself has happened to me, I have decided to open it now.
By the way, I also can hide who am I. Only the post describe who I am.
So, the thing that actually upsetting myself today is I was being back stabbed by my housemate. It is not really serious case, but for me they say they talked about my 'softness'. it is my fault at first for asking what they say about me. I should have just forgive them without asking further question. Damn!
The truth is, I am really sensitive when some people talking about my softiness. Its look trivia but I just can't accept this. For about more than 4 month my ear has never heard those words. I think I fully changed. But recently I have some feeling that i act quite softy these days.
Urgh!!! I felt like i want to cry here, alone. But living with 5 people in this house prevent me from doing that.
I miss my home and my family, as I was away in the oversea to further my studies.
Actually, maybe i've matured a little bit but still, i just can't take it i still showed my softiness. Frankly saying, I am a person who like to take revenge for everything bad. They are my roomate, and I think i've been giving them the most cooperation. I cooked for them, I bought them food, I teach IT stuff etcetera. But now, I just feeling really in a bad mood.
Right now, I have to put my 'good side' mask, ask after this i will damn passive. I will cook my own food etc. Will just ignored anything about them. Urgh!!!
Still, my sadness and my anger keep moving inside my head and won't stop. I want to cry... In here, I think I've cried so many times. Arrggh!!! They are so bullshit.
They might look innocent and done may good deeds but I never though they would do this thing. For the mean time, I just act 'professional'
About cooking, I like cooking, but not love. I love to try new food and eat food that i like. Recently, our house kitchen didn't smoke. One the reason (for me) is for what the hell am i going to cook over there while they do nothing? They keep complaining about the food.
Eventhough it is not my dishes but my friends' who is can be said as my co-cooker, i think also have the same hatred feeling. They complain about the 'kuah tomato' but they do nothing. JUst talking a lot!! Everyday like that!
Now, I now putting my body for rest for study and only cook for myself only.
And one more thing i hate is some of them said they don't want to go into the kitchen and cooked because the are 'men', don't want to become women. SHit!!!!
