One week

It has been a week since I went into the hospital, working as a houseman.

It is true what people said about the depression and the stress that one will felt, till one can't stop thinking to quit working every other day.

Things was quite unfavourable for me because the hospital I have chosen, decided to revert using the on-call system, because of houseman inadequacy in number.

So, not only you going to work long hours, but when you are on call, you are going to be by yourself.

OMG!!

Imagine, if I was on call, suddenly a patient having dyspnea.

However, the people inside my department is quite nice. Only a few of the specialist was quite strict. My department, the Orthopaedic is to said the most relaxed department but for me, I was about to my limit.

I wonder what would I be when I went into a more hard and horror department.

I guess if you don't think about it too much, it won't affect you.

I just do not want to be extended.

But that was not the thing that I want to talk about

Yesterday, a very cute senior houseman was on call. So I was with him in the day. He is so nice.

I think he is a bit shorter than mine but that face, that smiling face, has melt my heart.

I definitely wanting to jump on him. Bahahaha *slut*

OK honestly I don't have much idea to write, also I thinks that I should use my off day as beneficial as I can other that writing rubbish. XD

So, toddles!

Dream

My dream has been so vivid in these few days. Vivid in terms of appearance and behaviour. I can see the faces clearly, and honestly, I felt like I was actually doing what I did in my dream, that made me felt tired after woke up.

Lucky that I am still unemployed.

Being the title of this post, I have one of the best dream yesterday night.

As absurd it sounds, I befriend (or accepted, not really sure) into an Korean idol group (lets laugh so loud)

I was there accepted with two of my other male friends from my highschool.

Dunno how did I getting involved with the idols but afterwards we sort of went into a trip. Like Family Outing of sort.

We were preparing to sleep on the floor.

I was gossiping chatting with my schoolmate about something on the mattress located on the floor, and then I realized we might have been too loud so I decided to stop chatting and starting to close my eyes.

At that time, I do questioned about how lucky I was to get accepted/close into an idol group. Then it struck me than my looks are below average, and so do my singing and dancing skills. It was so absurd LOLs.

I felt so inferior in addition with my weight of extra baggage. Because of that, I scooted away to sleep at the other end of the mattress because I don't want others to feel cramped.

There was a moment of blanket pulling (we were sharing the same big blanket). At that time those idols still preparing themselves to sleep.

Then one of them went to sleep, to my direction. He just went to lay on top of me.

Oh my. I thought he wanted to mess with me so I just hug him tight from the back, then prompting that idol to try to try to get out from my hug.

But suddenly he became quite shocked, moving exaggeratedly then starting to get aggressive. Suddenly I felt my body was thrown to the side, and I was having a back pain in my dream -.-

Afterwards, he moved away, leaving a space for two people next to me. Dang it!

Why did he went away??? T_T

But nevermind. After all, there are going to be another idol who was going to sleep beside me so I just smiled cheekily.

Suddenly I heard my father's voice.

It was morning. He was waking me up.

Blueghhhhh (-.-")

Blabbering

I still remember, two years ago while jogging in the dusk, with pain in leg, I said to myself to not eating a lot and promised to keep myself from regain my weight. Because it has been the trend that I'll lose weight when I was in oversea, but when I came back to my hometown, I'll gain weight.

Turn out this trend continues, now.

God I think I have gained weight like 5 kg. Ok maybe 8 kg.

I am feeling so stressful.

Because the culprit is not me, but my mother.

I don't get it why she was so obsessed in making so many food to eat?

There ALWAYS a leftover. But then, the leftover will be thrown just like that.

Such a waste. I believe if that can be converted to money, we could have been filthy and stinking rich.

But then it was not totally my mother fault. My father, don't really understand the phrase "make things easier for others". My mother made all that food for my father to eat.

So here I am declaring that to my future spouse, I shall not burden you the worries of fill my tummy. Let's together eat healthy and do exercises to get sexy body healthy.

I mean, why would people make so many side dishes when one is enough??

Now, I can't sit properly without feeling uncomfortable because well, my tummy was bulging. -.-

But worry not, because I am going to start working in 3 days time. Yeay!

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On another occasion, I have pre-ordered the Simcity 5 games. So, I am feeling so restlessness eager to wait for the release date.

Honestly, the game gets into my dream everytime I sleep. OMG.

I just hope it won't disappointing.