Not so long ago I watched 63 episodes of Korean drama titled Life is Beautiful. It was a long episode so at first I thought what the fuck but then when I started watching it, I feel that the storyline is so interesting.
I decided to watch the drama when I knew that it features a gay couple inside it. And to my astonishment, it was not about openly gay people but rather about closeted people. Which somehow I feel connected to.
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| These actors was not gay in real life (I think) and in the drama the most skinship they have is hugging. I wish they are kissing part. The black-suit guy has nice body though. XD |
Above is the fore-mentioned couple. The one with the grey suit is a doctor (like me lols!!) while the black one is a freelance photographer.
The grey suited person is a reserve person (again like me!) who always aware of the surrounding when going intimate while the black suited guy is wanted to just showing everything.
So my dream is like this drama. I dreamed of jogging with the guy with the black suit. My dream was getting weird when we jog into the hospital (my workplace) but then we miraculously changed our attire into a work clothes and walk separately because we are afraid that people would know our secret.
The funny part is I remember in the dream we are jogging by wearing the work clothes INSIDE our sport attire so we can pretend.
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| He is really my type of person. Yet I don't the looks of the other person lols. |
Then after completing our jog path in the hospital (ok wtf) we went back jogging at the usual jogging trail in the park, again miraculously changing into sports attire
After jogging some distances somehow he initiate a hug. So we hug. And for weird reason eventhough it was a dream, I can feel the warm and comfort in that hug. (maybe it was summer yet I still sleeping in comforter with the fan on). Is was great.
And suddenly I decided to want to take it to the next level (but aware that maybe I need to take a bath after this lols) but then he resisted for the unknown reason.
I'm disappointed but I agree maybe because it is a open area (well in the drama these couple always have the need to hide their intimacy) or maybe we are moving to fast.
For some reason I am imagining talking to Mr G.
Then I being myself getting into "doesn't-care-anymore attitude" (or more into getting sensitive lol) then suddenly I can hear he said this exact dialogue to me. And it make me melt and saying "Pfft!" because he is the one who rejecting my moves lols.
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| cute cute cute I am melting. Pft!! |
I woke up feeling nice and cozy. It was such a nice dream. I really wanted to be hugged. By a man. I am not sure if the feeling is the same hugging with a women.
Anywhow, a dream is a dream.
A part of this drama is tear-jerker for me, when the doctor guy confessing to his mother (then to his family) that he feels that he is not normal. And he also said being an obedient son, he will do whatever the family ask him to do even if they want him to die.
We are not asked to be like this but as some may say this is the test from the God, it is a very hard test.
A normal guy can feed his lust by marrying to a girl but for people like us it is a very difficult road.
For now, this scene really saying it for me. I'll be pretending till forever.
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| this actor in another drama plays as a jerk so I have a thing not to really like him lols. Btw bangs really change one appearance |
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