Apart

I am getting depressed nowadays for no reason. Maybe the idle life makes me feels like this. You know, the feeling of unimportant, the feeling of one being useless and the feeling of having no accomplishment that deserves bragging.

Or, maybe because my friends, one by one starting to go back to Malaysia for holidays. Most of them I will be seeing them again during the graduation day but for few of them, this is the last time to see them.

Oh God I am feeling so sad.

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Yesterday I went to the night prayer wanted to have a look at Mr G but he didn't come. I'm planning to follow him back to his house, having some conversation before he went back to Malaysia. But I guess he can't come to the prayer so maybe he was not in his home. Or maybe he is busy.

This morning, I have a dream being with him. Not the sweaty full of action and desire dream (if you know what I mean) but rather, I am acting all cute and lovey-dovey to him.

I was doing something then I got in an accident like I got something sprained. He attended me. The sprain is not really serious but for some reason I pretend I was in pain and need his support.

So we are on our way while me clinging to him. We talked, and I was taking advantage to do all sort of body contact because we have never been this close. Well maybe we do once but I don't feel as good and a close as this one. It was nothing lustful but I just feel great, comfortable,warm and nice. 

Until during the last moment of my dream, he asked why I am being like a sissy.

God what a bugger. =.=

Throwing the final part away, generally I am very happy. Too bad it was just a dream. Meh.