Graduation Dinner

Mr G is back! And to make things interesting, he was in the same flight as my parent. And they even sat next to each other in the flight.

I guess in the future if Mr G become my boyfriend, it would be easier for me to introduce him LOLs.

Anyhow, Mr G and I feel distant, again. I realized I have this weird shy attitude with people that I don't meet for a long time. Like when Mr H came back, I tried not to accidentally met him. Eventhough I went to his house for some matter with his housemate, I am feeling so glad knowing he was asleep when I was there.

But we are getting closer back. Mr G, Mr H and I. Haha.

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We have our graduation dinner. two days before graduation.

I am so not in mood taking pictures with anybody. First I hate my look. It's all wrong and not photogenic. My hair, my skin, my ear lobe. I have a very low self esteem at this moment.

Secondly, my suit is bad. I bought the ready made. Turn out I can fit in, but the suit was intended for taller people.

Thirdly, I have no good camera.

Fourth, my BB cream went away when I washed my face one hour before the event. Pffftt!!

And lastly, because this is still not the end. We still have the graduation day.

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I really wanted to take picture with Mr G, just the two of us. But I don't want people feeling awkward seeing me taking couple photo while NOT taking picture with others . I can always take solo picture with them but I feel it is a hassle as I want to take solo picture with everybody during the graduation because we don't know when we will meet again.

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There was a red carpet photography session yesterday. However I don't take any because my self esteem felt to lowest that night.

Because of Mr G.

No, not because he humiliated me or something, but because I just realised he is taller than me.

Damn it!! I thought we were of the same height! No wonder he looks so good.

Adding salt to the wound, his suit is so great. Damn it, again!! I am so wanted to hug him from behind!

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Anyhow, actually I am feeling so down because the university arranged us in the hall for graduation, according to our cGPA.

My G sat way top of me.

And I sat way behind. People of the last row.

I hate this. I am so broken.

p/s: we were walking from our outdoor photoshoot session, suddenly Mr G makes a gesture wanting to hold my hand. I got mixed signal now. -.-

p/s: Mr G bought a galaxy note. But when people wanting to take a look at it, he quickly locked his whatsapp application. Damn!! I feel so intrigue to know with whom he messaged??

I wonder if there is a tiniest possible that was in a relationship with a male? haha #hopelessme