The end is near

Finally I have a big reason to whatsapp-ing Mr G. Haha

I was afraid that he only got whatsapp for his Malaysian number, but then when I opened my whatsapp, it said he just online 15 minutes ago. Hehehe

So we had a chat. For sometime.

Then he asked me to pause. To wait. I wonder what was he doing.

Then he called me.

We chat a bit.

I was telling him about our junior who wanting to make the contract. 

He asked, "who want your house? a married couple?"

"Nope. You know that guy *description here*. He and his friend *name here* ."

"I see. Two men. Gay again? LOLs"

"Haha..."

I am not sure if it was a good or bad thing that we do the gay jokes here. I mean there's sometime when I do the jokes, I really mean it. But when Mr G doing it, particularly about affection etc, I can't be sure if there would be some sincerity in it. But of course I wish it would be true.

I am going to be separated with Mr G the day after tomorrow. After this, I can no longer see him face to face.

I know that there might be a chance that I will meet someone better, and maybe, someone whom I can, you know, do more.

I can't help myself to stop comparing with others. Although I think I know better that I never once, won. 

And with Mr G, it seems that I am out of his league.

He is good looking, tall, study well and so on.

Sometimes I wish life would be just similar as the gay movies. Like two men being a close friends, then suddenly one of them realized that he has fall in love with the other one.

And after some conflict, the other guys realized he too feels the same. Then the two of the live happily ever after.

But meh, I am so different with Mr G. And I think nowadays I always made stupid jokes whenever I am with him. Oh bollocks!

To end my post, well I am so desperate depressed.