Emotional Dream

I had a very weird dream.

At that time a mega corporation TM (Telekom Malaysia lol), has taken over the country. The country now divided into two sides. The pro-corp and the anti corp.

I was still undecided. As I don't prefer changes, and as I have the impression that TM is a bad corporation, kinda like the Death Race film, so I joined the opposition team.

In my dream there were my other batchmates. And to make things weirder, as a young doctor, we need to choose our side. That is to say choosing our employer.

Mr G was there too. He has chosen TM since the beginning.

Me, and as most of our batchmate, team up with the opposition.

I have a mission to infiltrates the TM company in for the attempt of sabotaging. (really?)

During the mission execution, we got an emergency message saying TM has finally taken over all over the country. So a curfew has been ordered. Anyone found outside will be prosecuted.

However, my friend and I are already on our way. We can't find any safe place to hide from the surveillance robots.
 
The were three of use. My partner and I manage to get out from getting into the TM base but unfortunately for our other partner, he crashed into the TM headquarters so he decided to either continuing the mission or if he is lucky enough, find a safe place until the curfew is over.

Suddenly, I played the role as that missing person. I was trying to hide but I got caught.

Then the role switched back.

My partner and I decided to get out from our hiding place to rendezvous. But we have lost our way too.

We keep on moving, until we accidentally met with the robots. We were chased.

I was injured, but we still managed to escape from the robots, with me almost unconscious.
 
Suddenly we arrived at a familiar place. The general hospital owned by TM, which all pro-corporation physician work.

We managed to change from our spy clothes into a normal office attire. Then my vision darken.

When I woke up, my partner was wearing the scrub, making rounds.

Suddenly Mr G came into the picture

We were observing Mr G doing a hard operation. I am astonished that as Mr G was the only one doctor on duty.

In my dream, it is said that he managed to achieved many achievements. Mr G has been able to conduct a difficult operation, despite just starting to practice. In his files (stalker me?) it say that because the lack of facilities and insufficient workers, one day he decide to take on the roles to save the life. He did it, then his journey of excellency began.

Then I saw my other colleagues who used to be on the opposition teams, they are too, joining the TM corporation health service.
Then, it hit me. I felt stuffy in my chest. I was filled with jealousy. Of Mr G.

I asked my partner about what happened.

He said when we arrived at the hospital he told the management that we want to work under them. As for my reason of unconsciousness, it is because we lost our way (really lame excuse)

However the management still bought it so we were absorbed into the system. And I think because Mr G helped us too?

I asked my partner about the well being of captured teammate. He didn't know what happen. It seems that whoever failed, he wont be remembered. LOLs

In my dream I thought that after all eventhough the country has became a total capitalist sucking the money from its citizen, things won't be too bad working with TM because there were some good in it. Majority of it.

Then it was time to wake up.

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We still are waiting for the interview. And our placement. But I felt so insecure.

Right now, I have the impression if I don't have the chance to further my study, I think becoming a Medical Officer for life is not a bad things.

After all, I have a role model. Well she is a blogger actually.

It's fine if I am just being a MO, as long as everything is enough for me. Or as the blogger doctor said, "not scrutinizing the price of one brand of cereal over the other just to save a few cents."

But I guess (as she said too), to see friends achieving many things in their married life and career, I too can't help feeling envious and regret.

I don't know. The future is not us to see.

I just want to be happy.