Frustrated

We were shooting for our graduation dinner video.

We divided the schedule according to the area. And yesterday was my area.

There are a lot of Malaysian in my area so we decided to just call around 10 people for our shooting. Because we think it would be too crowded with too much people.

And, I feel a bit guilty because my recently close friend (he lives nearby so I usually went to his house) wasn't not invited by the group.

But, I decided that I would take that friend footage later on with his housemates and neighbour.

Things has been favourable for me. I mean everybody give a substantial cooperation to me. While shooting, I thought about that friend so I leave some part hoping that person would do it.

Today we finished shooting in all the area. So I thought I would ask that friend to do it after this.

Turn out, he refused. Saying he is camera shy etc.

I am in rage!!

What the f*ck?? What is the problem?? I leave the most easier, idiot-looking proof part for you. I mean unless you are so retarded, you won't mess it.

Honestly, I can finish shooting with those sporting people but I took the liberty to leave some part for you. And FYI many people are asking for that part because it is one of the easiest!!

When editing, some part was missing. That friend's part.

What I hate the most it because you don't appreciate my effort. And I can't think another reason for your refusal other that you said you are being unreasonably shy. Who you think you are??

Other people are shy too, but they still do it nevertheless.

To think that I've spend days to think what act you can do so as not to taint your non-existent image.

I have been trying to persuade him. I sent comment on his Facebook wall.

Adding oil to the fire, when I went to have a look at his profile, it disappear.

 He DELETED my comment. Oh no you didn't!

But I guess it is my fault too. I have too high of an expectation. I should've known you better, as we have been friends for about two years.

I should have knew you are the person that don't really believe in giving things more that to receive.

And also your inferiority complex, your insecure feeling, your mysterious I-have-a-secret attitude, and your I-can-look-at-your-stuff-but-you-can't-look-at-mine behaviour, are annoying.

Seriously, why are you so insecure?? Bad childhood?

Why when I am being the good guy, I am always the one who being pathetic and unappreciated??


I am tired, and sleepy. I guess that was the reason for me being cranky.