Lonely

It's 23 September now. In less than one month I will be leaving for good to Malaysia.

I am nervous. Of the unknown future.

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As I have too much time alone, I've made some deep thought. About friends. About friends' behaviour to me. Yeah it is always about me haha.

Anyhow if you noticed, I've made a lot of post about friend. About my unsatisfaction. Am I too choosy? Am I too demanding??

It is just... why life is so complicated? Or because I was being selfish so I am the one who made it so complicated?

Well I am not totally at fault.

You know that I am still mad at Mr Z (that friend). But what I am most annoyed was he just made like nothing happened. Well I myself did the same also. I am cool just like that, as I said lol.

I really hate his ignorance.

Actually my reason of anger was I was being left out. Haha.

They went to make a suit but they don't invite me. But maybe because I told them I've one. But I want to made another one. But I have no money. But it is so cheap. But it is not like I am going to wear them frequently. But I am just being greedy. OK stop!

And recently I read that they are making satay. They don't invite me yet. Hmm. It is ok anyway, I was on diet and I want to save.

Anyhow, I say life was complicated because the person we want to care don't care about us, but the people who cared about us, we tend to neglect.

Mr Z is a nice people to hang out with. To laugh with and so on. But he is so stingy. So calculative. *although he made a post thanking me for teaching him how to make roti jala*

But still, maybe I was mad because he is a man of a few words. Last time I got my voice up at him cause he refused to call his neighbour just to ask if the neighbour is ready for our steamboat party. I mean what is the problems??

In other notes, Mr T is so talkative. Suit him well cause he knows a lot of people, and people knows him too. And not to forget, he seems to know everything. Haha.

But I feel annoyed with Mr T. He talks to much, asks too much. I feel tired.

Somehow at one time I found that Mr Z and I, we both are ignoring Mr T. Haha

I am lonely. I need company. I miss my friend who was in Malaysia already. I am bored with the friends here hahaha.