My face is getting better now because I think I have gone past puberty but the scar is there.
My father has a fair skin, while my mother has darker skin. I am blessed with my father's skin. My brother who was born before me got my mother's skin, and my mother told me that my brother got teased in the school a lot.
During the hot days, my mother would wore clothes that shows her back in the house. And her back is not really pretty.
And I think I got her back (no pun intended).
I don't like being shirtless in public unless I got no choice and even that would be done in split second and as less skin bare as I could with no people looking. It is mostly because I feel uncomfortable doing so in the presence of people, and also I felt ashamed that my skin and body is not in a good shape.
It is Summer in here. Previously I just slept with my shirt on but this year I started sleeping with my shirt off because it is so hot and also I have this theory that some people got a nice back because they sweat less in their shirt. So no shirt=no sweating
However right now my back feels so uncomfortable and a bit dry. When I rub my hands on them, it feels a bit scaly. And when I took a photo of my back, it was so horrible with red spots. I think right now being shirtless in public is a no-no T_T
I am so jealous of Mr G and Mr H. They both got fair skin, and sexy back. I am so stressed why I am not blessed with the good skin genetics? And I guess their genetics makes them sweat less, so the good skin was not because they wore the shirt less
I sweat so much (-.- ")
I believe everybody have their own positive and negative aspect. I wonder if they got good skin, what would be their negative aspect? Mr H would be being short (LOLs). But Mr G??
Sometimes it bothers me that even if I am to confess my feeling to them, or to any of gay people out there, my very very bad skin is a total turn off. And I definitely not deserve to expect pretty boy.
Damn it is so frustrating.
I can't be vain.
Teenagers can be really mean. And I don't mean that as a joke. I like to believe that I was blessed with good skin. As a teenager, I rarely got pimples. But on the rare occasion I did, it was the centre of attention in class.
ReplyDeleteEveryone has something they're insecure about. Some people just don't show it. I guess Mr.G would have something that he's insecure about.
I'm sure you have good qualities other than your skin. I mean, stop dwelling so much about it. If it bothers you (clearly it does), then do something about it. Stop feeling sorry for yourself and face it head on.
Have you thought about seeing a dermatologist? I'm sure they could recommend a treatment plan.
Good for you. For Mr G one bad thing I know is he went for an inguinal hernia surgery two years ago lol.
ReplyDeleteI guess my problem is I keep on being insecure and keep on dwelling on things (cause I got free time now lols)
But still, "to do something about it" is one of the reason that I am feeling this. Why I need to work too hard while some people are so blessed??
I have three different creams and cleanser to put on my skin while they put on body soap yet they have better skin than me.
I am being a whiner now (-.-")
I am quite pessimist. I tried asking a consultation before for my face acne scar but when I search about the treatment online most of them said the result mostly unsatisfactory. Some even said their skin before treatment was better :-0