Dating

I just went back to my hometown yesterday afternoon. Then, at dusk, my girlfriend send me sms asking what to do with things that she has bought for me from her last trip to Langkawi. In other words, she meant, "come to my house so you can take that stuff. And eat lunch with my mother".

Sound forceful but then, I think there's no harm to eat free lunch with them.

Although I was scared about my weight as they tend to overfed me. -.-

This morning, I felt quite sleepy from masturbating last night. Can't help it because I felt bored LOLs.

So, I felt quite lazy to go to her house. And to be honest, I am a man of few words. I mean, I can't have a long conversation with anybody. So I think it would be awkward if I went there early, then suddenly after a while we got nothing to talk about.

However, I still get my body moving.

While driving, suddenly I have this thought what if the house that I was going to, was Mr G's or Mr R's house? Well I am sure wanted to go as soon as possible. Or literally jumping from the bed eager to go.

Again, the depression struck me. And the guilt.

While I was at her house, we gossiped about our ex-school classmate, who coupled with this guys, who happened to also have another girlfriend. But at the end, that guy choose his first girlfriend instead of our classmate.

Love can made one become nonsensical.

So I made this statement,

being too pretty is a burden too, because one may also attract the undesirable attention (read: jerks)

Then she said she was lucky that she was not pretty.

Aww. You are pretty in your own way. Not really a "supermodel pretty", but you are cute and great on the eyes to look at.

She blushed. Then she said to her mom, that I said she was pretty.

The her mom agreed, by saying that her skin looked better these days, then said, "you got a nice skin, and looks fairer now, so I think you better be on diet to get slimmer a bit"

Right on the spot, mom! eh, auntie.

I stayed in the kitchen while watching them preparing the lunch. #lazybum

Then suddenly I thought these situation seems so right. I felt like I want to hug her from behind, but then, I still think I would rather hug Mr G, or being hugged.

Unfortunately, from my experience surfing the internet, a gay couple seems only right, when both of them are attractive. If they aren't, it just seem so wrong. And maybe, disgusting.

I am not attractive, so it going to be so wrong.

*sigh*

This is life that I need to live.