Monologue

"If one asked a woman, it is forgiveable that she don't know what CC of her car, but for a guy to not knowing, it's just absurd!!"

Well, I DO wish I am a pretty girl, every single day. I do not wish to be like this.

This trip... Could be a mistake.

I finally decided to drive to Mr R's, but it could be just another my bad decision.

I think the only manly about me other that my hideous appearance is my sense of practicality.

I mean, I know I am not a perfect driver. But really, I felt furious that Mr F criticized my way of driving. Should not you take into the account that we arrived safely, and I was driving YOU there, in manual transmission car?

Really, suddenly the words from Mr R about Mr F keep on lingering inside my head. Maybe, me myself has this growing of hatred to Mr F.

And, to make things worst, no one on my side. Even Mr R, after listening to Mr F repeatedly complaining about my way of driving, said to me, "do you know how to drive or not?"

Hmmm...

Tomorrow we will be going to the wedding. Me, unable to accept more criticism, wanted Mr R to bring his car. Although, at this moment, I thought I should be firm and insisted to drive to prove to them that is was not bad as Mr F's said.

But then I thought, why should I wasted my energy to please people?

Today, there is nothing sweet about Mr R. He seems not friendlier like he was in the online game.

Maybe, I am destined to be alone, as I think I am happier when I am alone.

I want to drift away...