BIrthday

Today is my GF birthday. Weird isn't it? I said a lot in previous post that I have a crush on men yet why did I get a GF? Well it's complicated. I'll explain it next time.

Anyway I did always remind myself of her incoming birthday. Yet, I somehow fucked up. I only realized it was her birthday when somebody mention me on my twitter. Holy crap. And to realized that I was about to sleep. Things would get really really ugly if I slept.

She is living in Malaysia while I am living somewhere in Middle East. We got 6 hours of time difference. So when it was 12 am in Malaysia, it was 6 pm in here.

Now, again I have reminded myself to wish her at 6 pm but I forgot. What was I was doing back then? I did put my notification in my HP but I guess I don't set the alarm. hmm

Surprise, surprise. I was going out with my third crush to buy a soccer shoes. (I guess I am easily to fall in love?). OMG. Totally like a scene when a man and women in a relationship was caught cheating when the man was dating other woman. As for my case, I was having an unofficial date with the man. And I forgot her birthday because I was with the man. Totally ironic.

Our outing could not be classified as "magical" nor extremely fun but I guess I still forgot because I can't focus on many things at once. During our trip I did give him a lot of "hints" about my fondness of him but I guess he just thought I was making a joke. As I always did. But he is so nice with me till I always misunderstood the signs.

Damn I felt so guilty. Luckily I can get out of the situation by giving excuses of time difference. But still, she seems mad. From her smses. She even mentioned that I was wishing other girls earlier. LOL. If only she would knew I don't love girls as much as I want to be with men.

Still, I dont know what to do really. It has been a while since the last time I wished anybody in FB happy birthday other than my family. Wait, I dont even wished them. I only wished to my parent. By SMS.

Well, I guess it was totally my fault for forgetting to wish her. These days, I only give a rat ass to the birthday notification in FB. It just cluttering my profile.

Another reason, I don't really care about people's birthday anymore cause it just give me headache.

Heck, to leser the blame, I don't even know the  birth date of Mr G and Mr H. As Mr H, I just knew that his birthday was around Jan or Feb. Yet I don't care about his birthday because he got a gift from our friend, yet that our friend don't give me any. Yeah I am one of those person who keep revenge.

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I wrote the above post on 7th May. But thank God till now, my GF forgives me. XP