Saturday, January 26, 2013

All is lost

Dang it. The plan fell into pieces.

I think maybe I have jinx it for being too excited.

Haish.

On a side note, I felt a bit relieved.

I've gained weight since my unemployment so I am so ugly that I wish I don't have to go out.

Maybe that was the first and the last time I saw you, Mr R.

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Another story, my parent and I were taking care of my brother's son. High functioning autism with Aspenger's syndrome.

I once, tried to study him, tried to understand him, but it is a hard work.

Also, due to my upbringing, I am not sure which method is right.

My parent is strict. So maybe we, their children is what people said, "successful" with career and all, but our inside, is damage. In a way.

So, now, I am becoming more hostile to my nephew. As I am tired to try to talk to him, explaining things and all.

I mean, why we should bother to listen to all his tantrum, this what was called in psychology of bad behavior,  "enabling" him??

Well, I know my way is wrong, if not totally wrong.

But I am speechless. I have great respect for his mother.

Maybe, this is what was known as  "natural selection". Only the strongest in a certain circumstances can strive. If they try to keep the less fit to strive, well the problem will come sooner or later.

Oh my I am turning into a psychopath. :-O

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