Touch

Being timid and shy, sometimes I wonder what action would be the most appropriate, when somebody put their hand on my shoulders

As a closeted gay, I would try to limit any body contact, even though my heart longing for one, as I don't want to be discovered.

And things get harder if not weirder when my crushes were around. I want to touched then but I am afraid my act would be seem as inappropriate. However, there are some of my straight friends who always makes a friendly body contact. Damn, I am so jealous of them.

The best moment, would be, when you become close to your crushes and they are the one who start making those friendly gestures.

However, I have this habit to spontaneously putting my hand onto their shoulder, as an indirect sign that I acknowledge their touch, and I want to repay them.

But usually my hand quite short, or they are quite tall. Then I end up putting my hands at their waist. I am literally caressing them LOL

Mr R put his hand on my shoulder.

Well, in the begining  Mr and Mr F was walking and talking together as I was walking behind them. Then Mr put his hand around Mr F. I felt quite envious at first.

Then, we stopped at a shop. When we started to move again, Mr R was putting his hand onto me.

I used to do the above thing on him before.

But this time, I restraining myself. Well more like that I was a bit too late because suddenly he starting saying things like "when somebody putting his hand onto your shoulder, it would be a waste of time for you to put back you hand onto his". Well I am not sure how he suddenly came out with those words.

I would like to think that he was taking advantages on me. Haha

I just nodded and smile amd laugh then i said, "really? How about if I put it at your waist (I DID to him) or you buttock? (so tempted to do it but I did not :( )"

We all just laugh.

Damn. I miss him