Outing

I went to a date with my girlfriend.

It felt so nice that I have someone who love me, and I can love her at some extend. After the misunderstanding that happened, I guess everything went to normal. Oh I forgot to apologize. Well I did want to apologize, the television ways, you know, with the flower and all, but then, I don't found the florist.

I am happy that I can have a good talk and a good laugh with her, but then, the feeling was different when I was with my crushes.

I mean, I can stare at my crushes all day along. But not her. Or I think I would rather doing other things than staring at her. Maybe, if I wait a little longer, waiting for the super pretty flawless-skin girl (in my dream I guess), I would also can stare at her all day long.

She is pretty in her own way. She IS cute. And fun. That was the quality I look when I first decided to start the move on her.

But then, I felt unhappy that my GF gained weight.

She was not really skinny during high school, but after college, she started to get bigger.

Can't blame her. Like my family, her family regards food above everything. I mean, everything is OK if there is enough food on the table. As I went to her house, her mother keep trying to stuff up my mouth. OMG! I am so hating the foods right now because as I was sitting at this moment, my stomach is folding and I felt so uncomfortable.

Things get harder as she is now living with the mother.

I felt pity that her mother is not feeling well due to diabetes complications, but then, I still don't get it why she didn't see that as a motivation to live healthy. She even said to me she hates to jog. For me, jogging is fun. It is tiresome in the beginning, but the endorphins and the feeling of knowing that I am doing something healthy, is priceless.

For me, after eating healthy (relatively), I felt uncomfortable when eating something greasy and oily. Like I feel heavier and and everything seems cloudy.

And the end of the date, I still thinking if it was possible if I want her to lose weight together. Or did I have made a mistake for choosing her? Should I choose a thinner girl, rather than hoping that a "larger" girl to become smaller??

I don't really wanting to force her to slimmed down but I want US together to lead a healthy lifestyle.

It is a hard work, but fit person is not only healthy, but also good looking.

Well, I am planning into making the conversation sooner or later.